You know that I wrote on my blog earlier that that day was my most helpless day eva. Well today is also my most helpless day...only in the morning. So I am doing the idiotic mvb again and its the fucking coding again. So I was just lost, stress, pathetic, cause I don even know a thing bout coding. And all my friends have completed this assignment and I'm stuck at the beginning, doing nothing. As I just tried, and tried and the errors kept popping out. I soon started to break down as I felt teary-eyed. So when people were doing their stuff, I just went out, I swear its like nobody realised I walk out of class. And from then onwards...I cried. I muttered in my mind,why I couldn't do things right in first time, why I could not do this...just talking to myself quietly. I just cried my heart out. My sleeves were just soaked with my tears but I don care, I just had some down to earth crying for a whole ten minutes.(guys watching this posts may think I'm a sissy but I guarantee you, I may be a little wimpy...but I am definately not a sissy). So after crying, I was on a bench just doing nothing, having more talks to my conciousness, doing some soul-searching. And you know what. after that crying, I suddenly felt everything round me, the stress, the anxiety, the phobia for doing mvb was gone. I felt cheerful and just happy. As I went back to my seat, I could think of nothing, really. I just stared at the computer, took a deep breathe and I thought..."oh my god . Why am I so fucking stupid". I swear to god I almost knew what I am going to do. one after another, I was just completing code after code. And at the end of the lesson, with some of my friend's help. I just completed almost 80% of my assignment within a day...and I don even know what I'm doing earlier this morning. Its like a miracle just happened.
okay so I know guys this generation want to be tough. Guys have this thing bout crying.Guys don cry, they are sissies when they cry...but now I'm telling you. Its okay to cry. Real man do cry, but not that much, or else you will really be a sissy. And its not just for men, its applies for women too. I mean if you are almost close to your breaking point...don suck it all up, it will make it worse and you won't be able to do anything right. Just let your emotions control you for the time being and you will realise that after that you can think clearly, think straighter and do things smarter...and its proven be me!!!and before I jump to the next segment. When you cry, at least have the decency to cry in a place where there's not much people. Won't it be embarassing for you to be crying in front of the whole class in the middle of lesson?
I also think that crying makes you more energetic. You won't realise this but my friend said that I am more energetic today then other days. I think its true cause during my maths, I could know what the teacher is saying, when most lessons I was struggling to keep up and the best thing is, I help my friends remember a tricky maths question which I used my own method to do which is good. Wow I have neva felt so excited in my mvb classes before...all thanks to crying.
Okay thanks for taking your time to see my posts, I know this particular post is fucking long and you bear with it. So thank you..with the bottom of my heart. Now go cry your heart out
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