why am I so lazy???there's a reason to it? random thoughts

Just before I wrote this posts, I was pondering on why am I so lazy this year. Is it because of the lazy bugs or is it because last year I just studied like shit for O levels and since that year was the pig, I am filling the rat's year with the pig year. I am turning lazy that's for sure. Well let me tell you something, I those people who learns abstractly. which means I must learns the things I be out of the box when I am learning. So if you give me tons of notes for me to revise and hope that I can memorise it like a retarded zombie...I say forget it. I can't even pass reading a chapter before I get distracted.But I can still remember easy facts. Like geography...yeah geo rocks! So the subjects I am currrently studying requires shitloads of logic which I lack so much. Coding requires logic, networking requires logic. Every freaking lesson requires some form of fucking logic. I hate it so much. That's why in my sec school, I love english, especially the compo lessons. Cause you can get to express yourself creativly. So in my sec school days, I did pretty well in english and humanities but sadly all 3s. Ah boo. The rest "4s","6s","7s". I didn't get a "5". I'm not a "5" person. So I was thinking why am I soooo fucking lazy and my mind gave me the reason why. Firstly...I don even understand what they are doing. I'm just following what they are doing. Understanding it and blind copying are two different things. And if I don understand it. Why would I even want to read the sources they give me. Nothing is gonna make sense to me even if I read it again and again and again. So why bother. They are just gonna go through my eyes and out my mouth...it sucks cause my friends are studying like mad and I'm like this. Like I'm giving up on my studies. So sad.

So yesterday my mother taught me how to point to flowers and plants. She said that just normal pointing plants and flowers will make them wilt and drop off...which this is so ridiculous. So she proposed that the best way to point to a flower is to point the middle finger to the plants...why would you want to fuck plants. I just laughed.loled

All right fun fact from me. If you did my quiz earlier in my blogs.(which I think you have not) You would know that my dream job is a writer. But sadly...and ironicly...I hate books. Haha a writer which hates books. I thinking books are boring unless they have funny elements in it. So that's why my book choices are limited. Just like all the young people I know...I hate books too. yay I guess

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